if i were a boy

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)


[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy...

crazy!

what was i thinking when i changed the colors of this blog? hahaha! well, i think my spontaneity overpowered the logical part of my brain. lol

breaking the limit

Did you know that I actually read Stephenie Meyer's Twilight novel in just 7 hours? I am not bragging,ok? I just feel proud of myself. I know that I can read more than a hundred words per minute but I didn't think I can reach my deadline. Coz you see, I borrowed the book at around 5PM last Monday and I told my classmate that I'm going to return it to her at 8:30 that following day. And I did! (huge smile)

over and done!

Remember the "report" I was talking about a couple of posts ago? Well, it materialized this morning. I was late for a minute or two and I was supposed to be the first reporter. I know what you're probably thinking, "Always the unreliable trexie". But hey I pulled it off! Or i hope so. (--,)

C'mon it's not easy being the fore-runner. You have to pave the way so it'll be smoother for your group mates. Being the first reporter puts you in a make or break situation. You become more or less the sacrificial lamb.

I guess I'll just have to keep my fingers crossed until the end of our report.

cleaning up

For the first time in my life I finally decided to clean up my acts. The first on the list is my language. Uhuh! I'm avoiding profanity nowadays. It's not like I wanna act "holier-than-thou" but I WANT TO CHANGE and become a better person. Not just for me but for the people who love me. And most of all, because i want to pay tribute to my Maker.

I am proud to say that after 19 years pf existence I have finally-- FINALLY! --found Him. I won't be scared to admit that I am a Christian. I may not live like I'm one now, but boy am I determined to really be one in every sense of the word.

I want to talk, act, and live like a true follower of Christ!

jargon

Let me start my post with a question. How do you let go of someone you never had? Does it make it easier knowing you never were committed to the person? Or does it make it harder because the person never knew just how much you cared? Whatever it is, it sure is hard to let go of someone you care about. Ask me. I know just how it feels..

restless...

i can't seem to pin-point the exact reason why i feel so restless right now. i want to do something but i don't know what. my mind wont even cooperate. (sigh)

back again!

well guess what! meeting just got postponed! darn it!

anyways, i can't say i'm happy with that but it gave me an extra time to post something longer. uhuh! and i do mean LONGER.

let me recall, my last long post was somewhere in october. guess that's a pretty long time to "gather" ideas on what to write huh? in fact i have tons of ideas swarming in my head right now. the problem is, i can't seen to find the right words to express it. hahaha! i'm thinkin' i can post something about religion,or maybe about just how hectic my schedule is. my love life is also another thing which entered my mind. hahaha!

i always have this penchant of sharing my life to the world. hahaha! typical vain trexie. (lol)

uhmm, i think i gotta run before my vanity and narcissity (if that kind of word exists in the english language).

okay, okay. i'm an egomaniac. so? ;)

don't wanna!

darn! it has only been three weeks since classes started but i'm already feeling the strain. there are sooo
many things to do. i--well, my group and i-- have this kinda long topic
to report and there is a BIG possibility that we are gonna start this
Friday. oh! i forgot to say,this is still our first meeting. :) there
is a lot of pressure on us since the first group to report sucked
(oops!i'm supposed to be cleaning my language. darn it!)!

well, i gotta run! i'm already late for our meeting!! see yah! :)

long time

it has been a long time since i last posted... i don't know what to say... :) i got kinda busy with school and stuff... i'll just try to post something next week-- if my schedule allows me to... :)

oh yeah!

i celebrated my birthday with my family last Wednesday, October 1. it was a blast even though we didn't celebrate it in a fancy restaurant or a five-star resort or something. my cousins were there together
with my aunties and uncles. it was crazy (with a capital C)! two uncles
of mine wanted me to intoxicate my system with booze! and i was like,
"Okay! what the hell! you asked for it", but my grandma was watching
near by so i demurely declined the offer.hahaha ! if my grandma was not
around that time, i wouldn't say no to them. there's nothing like being
"legally" allowed to drown yourself with booze.

anyways, i was so touched with the first person who greeted me. actually, he just texted me at the first minute of my birthday (technically, that's 00:01,October
1,2008). the message was just "happy birthday boss!" (and sent 3
times,mind you). and take note, he would've called me had not my sister
stopped him. all for the sole reason that he wanted to greet me. and
you know who he is?
my sister's boyfriend. yup! her man. i was so touched, it solicited my
first smile of the day.

there were also others who greeted me--aside from my family. there was Maan,and K.A.,and Stella,and Frencille,and Junborg,and Bagzy,and Lar, and lastly Joshua (whom i had to remind because he forgot). =)

so
basically those were the people who greeted me and--allow me to say--
remembered my special day. to those who forgot my birthday,well,TO HELL
WITH YOU!(the rebel steps out again.LOL)


the end but not yet over.

my bad

have you ever made a "big mistake" in your life? and no matter how hard you try you can never undo it? or no matter how much you try to move on you seem to be stuck in that era?

yeah, well, i guess that's how i feel right now.. but life goes on and so must i.
there's no use crying over spilled milk, right?

i may be stupid for making that mistake. i may be hurt because of that. BUT I LEARNED.
i guess all i can say is "Oops! My bad!"

goodbye...

where's the good in goodbye?
when it leaves you crying,
broken and so empty inside.

where's the good in goodbye?
when all i have are memories of you and me
that will never come back.

where's the good in goodbye?
when i know my heart will be lost
without you near me.

where's the good in goodbye?
honey do i have to spell it out?
goodbye will simply mean the end of my life.

l-o-v-e

Love is the most vulnerable of all feelings; it is fleeting, capable of evaporating like mist in the morning sun. A little insincerity makes us doubt it. An argument over little things can threaten it. Sometimes it seems much easier not to struggle to love another but to be content just LOVE OURSELVES.

maybe

maybe it's not meant to be

this thing between

you and me.

maybe we're working

against the fates,

because neither of us

is meant to stay.

maybe it's time

to let go

forget everything

and just move on.

maybe we've reached

the end,

and it's time to say

our fare-thee-wells.