what people are afraid to say...

People are afraid of saying "I love you" only to hear "I don't care" in response.
They fear exposing their weakness by admitting their hurt.
They fear being abandoned if they express their anger.
They fear telling the truth and hurting their partner.
They fear revealing their ignorance, starting a fight, opening old wounds.
And yet ignorance comes from withholding inquiry, fights occur because consensus has not been reached, and old wounds fester because they have not been exposed. Learning to talk takes bravery and trust. The rewards are worth the risk.

ReBeL KiD

i hate feeling like this!!! i hate pretending to be fine when deep inside i know i'm next to dyin'. i hate surrounding myself with a friend or two, and hang out in crowded places to blot out this empty feeling inside. i hate the person who more or less caused what i'm feeling. and most of all, i hate myself for feeling this way. i should've known better than let to that person get close to me. i wish i could've known sooner...(dammit!)

expired

it's kinda funny how we-teenagers-use the word "expired" to describe our feelings when we feel lousy or sad. why can't we just honestly say how we are feeling? then our world could become a much less pretentious world. why can't we practice telling the truth? it couldn't be that hard saying what you really feel inside even if it means unveiling the real you.

but then this world revolves around irony. and irony of all ironies, i'm posting about being real and yet i can't bring myself to admit to someone that that someone is causing me pain... :c

i never thoughted!

i never thought ROTC could be this FUN!!! hehehe! for an asthmatic girl, ROTC could mean a death sentence. yup! a literal death sentence. imagine this, students doing military drills under the scorching heat of the sun. thank heavens i'm assigned at the HQ PD. which means, i'll still be undergoing military training but- there's a BIG but- i'm doing it under the "protection" of the grandstand. hahaha! plus with the cute officers (yup! there are more than enough cute officers for you to admire) ROTC is definitely a thing to watch for.

ROTC ROCKS!!! yeah!

some things are not meant to be kept forever...

you know you have to stop and let go when things aren't going right,
and everything you did is unappreciated...

remember, it is wiser to be alone but happy...
than with somebody who do nothing while you do everything...

my mind is blank but i want to write something. although i don't know what. let's just say i'm in the mood for reflecting. ok. question, if you're gloria macapagal arroyo,what will you do regarding the ZTE scandal? will you come clean? or will you "pretend" that you don't have any notion regarding the kickbacks?
guys,i think it's high time for us to involve ourselves in the current happenings in our country. we can go out and raise our voices. well, not literaly,i mean. you can say what you feel on your friendster accounts or your blogs.

you can't hurry love...
coz it always takes its time...

there are people who keep
what they feel...
they still smile
eventhough it hurts...
they pretend to be fine
even if they're not...
they cry alone...
they seem to be strong
even if inside they're dying...
know what's hard to say
at this moment?
"sometimes, i'm one of them..."

a girl loves her boyfriend so much. she wants to go out with him but the guy said he's too busy. a week later, she asked him again, but still, he refused.
it had been a month since the guy last talked to her. the girl missed him so much.
one night while walking, she saw her guy with another girl. her tears fell and she went home.
you know what she did? she called him sayin', "hi baby, i miss you. they said you're on a trip, hope you're enjoying. have a safe trip back. i love you"
that's love, it sees but it doesn't mind.

"it's not worth winning if you don't have to fight for it"

today is another milestone in my life and i just wanna take this opportunity to thank some people.(imagine me receiving an award. hehe!) serious ni bai! to my best friend in the whole wide world, MAAN, thank you most of all for the friendship. words can't express how important you are to me. ayabyu! to URICH (who wants to be called "sid"), thank you for showing me that there's still life after a heartbreak. and thank you for coming back into my life. to DAWN, thank you for always being there. i may not be the best a friend can be but you know i'll always be here for you. love you girl! REN, you have always given me inspiration through your music. thank you and i love you! YPA (she doesn't want me to call her by her Christian name) even though you're a hundred miles from me you still take time to ask me if i'm fine, and i thank you for that. TAHTA KYUT, thank you so very much for helping me emerge from my shell. i still have so many people to thank but i'll just save it for next time. hehehe! until next time guys! toodles! sayonara! au revoir! ciao!

what is hello without goodbye
can't find a tear without acry
been there; done that; nothing to hide
pain usually occurs with self pride

why does love have to end
do i hold on or just pretend
that it no longer hurts to remember
promises made, return to sender

like the setting sun or a sinking ship
darkness fades, each time you quit
once whole then half, and sinking fast
why do good things never last

falling again

there's this guy
who always make me smile
and when i want to cry
he's always at my side

he's been in my life
for quite some time
and he's been my inspiration
all the while

he doesn't give me
roses everyday
but he sure take
all my blues away

the sun shines brighter
when i'm with him
butterflies are dancing
with their colorful wings

another day ends
and as i reminisce
i couldn't help but smile
because i know
i'm falling again this time...

why do i love you?

why do i love you?
heck! i really don't know
this feeling just
came out of the blue

maybe it's because
you're very thoughtful
or the care you've
shown me too

it maybe because
you're very understanding
and you tried to comprehend
my mood swings

i love you
maybe, just maybe, because you were there
when i needed somebody,
when i needed you...

(this poem is for my bestfriend MAAN)