Story of My Life

Something I Stumbled Upon Years Ago

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequated.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frighten us.
We ask ourselves, Who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
 
- - Marianne Williamson

Does That Hurt?

Keegan Allen

This guy plays Toby in Pretty Little Liars.

Cristiano Ronaldo

Me Every Morning

Prinsesita Sophia

Before my sister and her family came home, we had a rift. Bad words were said to each party. That's why I was anxious how the air is going to be when I heard that she's coming back. Needless to say, there was a little awkwardness at the beginning. I wasn't in the mood for a confrontation nor do I want to up the rest of the family so I sort of avoided her. And then this cute little angel arrived and stole our hearts. We were literally goners from that time on. Haha!

This is my niece Sophia. She and her mom will be going back to Manila early Sunday morning and I'm going to miss this little lady a lot. Until we meet again my Piyaya. :) And until then I'm going to have to be contented with looking at your photos or of the two of us together.

A Quote By Jared Leto

Long Time

I know I said I'll post something SOON but a couple of things happened to me and my family which hindered me from posting anything. First of all, the night that I talked about posting about my reviews on the second and third book of the Fifty Shades trilogy, my Uncle got rushed to the hospital. He underwent emergency a few hours later. And with just more or less 4 hours of sleep, I went to the hospital to relieve my Auntie of the task. He was released from the hospital a few days later.

However after 48 hours or so, another news broke. My Grandma's sister died. The whole family went into mourning mode. I didn't think it was appropriate that I spend time online when my other Grandma was lying in a coffin. Her wake lasted for more than a week, and it was only after that period that I started thinking about coming back online. Then my little sister got busy with her volleyball practice, and as the older sister, I feel like I have to supervise her training hours.

And now, I'm back again--but only for a mere 24 hours. I still don't know when I'll be able to come online again but I still have every intention of posting my reviews about Fifty Shades Darker and Fifty Shades Freed.

Fifty

It's been a few weeks since I last posted something. And I can still remember my plan of posting what I think of the second and third book of the Fifty trilogy. That's exactly what I'm going to do but not now. Haha! I'm quite in a good mood today and I'm saving my writing mood during melancholic times. Hopefully I'll be able to come online tomorrow so I can post my reviews--the operative word being hopefully.

Crossing my fingers,
Trexie ;)

Fifty Shades of Grey

Ever since the literature world was taken by storm by the Fifty Shades trilogy, I never had the compunction to read even one of the books. And I simply don't have any explanation for it although I do have the electronic copies of the book stored in my email. A few days ago, I felt a little bit restless and I know re-reading my old books would never satisfy me. So I opened my email and started reading my Fifty Shades of Grey ebook. I started reading around 9 that evening and finished it around 6 the following morning. If you all remember my post about Twilight, you wouldn't be surprised to hear that I stayed up the whole night just to read a book.

Although I didn't become a fan after reading the first book of the Fifty Shades trilogy, there are some things that I'd like to note. For me, the story was very plain (maybe because I've read several chapters of the fan fiction which started the trilogy in the first place). There was nothing incredible about it, well until I got to the ending though. But we'll talk about it in a while.

Now, if you make a conscious effort of just glossing over those scenes which depicts sexual relations, there are several things that you might find out. First of all, why does Christian Grey doesn't want Anastasia Steele to touch his chest? This isn't something that you can find in any male character and it made me think that maybe Christian isn't nearly as perfect as Anastasia views him. The great and invincible Mr. Grey is not really as great and invincible as we would like to think. He has issues from his past that has made him into the man he is.

Let's talk about the ending. I thought the plot was very plain for a book which has sold like hotcakes in the market. However the last few pages of the story caught my eye. I think that the time when Anastasia reacted strongly to Christian after he hit her with the belt six times is the climax of the story. It was at that point that she finally saw Christian for who he is. Throughout the story, Anastasia has only looked at Christian through rose-colored glasses. Oh he is perfect in his impeccable gray suit, or his super sexy white shirt with a few open buttons, or how hot and smoldering his eyes get when looking at her. After the sixth time the belt hit her, reality came crashing--hard. In that moment, Anastasia saw Christian Grey as a man who has his own hang-ups--or probably even more. She realized that he is not capable of loving her the way she wanted to be loved. And try hard as she might, she will never be the woman he wants. And so she leaves him.

After reading the story, I feel a little sympathy for Christian. He did all he could to make Anastasia feel good---loved even, if we allow it. He even admitted that he shared quite a few first times with her. Needless to say, he is slowly working his way from his issues. He just needed enough time to reach an impasse with his own self but Anastasia wanted everything from the get-go. And that's where the problem lies.

So now, I'm reading the second book of the trilogy which is entitled Fifty Shades Darker just to see what happens to their twisted love story. The first few pages were good but I think I'll be seeing more of the "should-I-be-with-him or should-I-stay-away" argument as the story transpires.

What Now?

I find myself in a melancholic mood today and so I found myself wondering. Is this all there is to it? Somehow I realized that things weren't going the way I thought they'd be and now I wonder if my plans for the next few months are still possible. Then I ask myself "what happens if doesn't pan out?". Do I push through with everything even if the odds are stacked against me? Or I regroup and wait for a better time? But what if my idea of a "better time" doesn't come? What now? This is the question running through my mind right this very moment. What now?

I guess I'll just have to let myself wallow in self-pity--if only for this time. I'll feel better later. Maybe, maybe not. But for now, I'll let this be...