ReBeL KiD

i hate feeling like this!!! i hate pretending to be fine when deep inside i know i'm next to dyin'. i hate surrounding myself with a friend or two, and hang out in crowded places to blot out this empty feeling inside. i hate the person who more or less caused what i'm feeling. and most of all, i hate myself for feeling this way. i should've known better than let to that person get close to me. i wish i could've known sooner...(dammit!)

expired

it's kinda funny how we-teenagers-use the word "expired" to describe our feelings when we feel lousy or sad. why can't we just honestly say how we are feeling? then our world could become a much less pretentious world. why can't we practice telling the truth? it couldn't be that hard saying what you really feel inside even if it means unveiling the real you.

but then this world revolves around irony. and irony of all ironies, i'm posting about being real and yet i can't bring myself to admit to someone that that someone is causing me pain... :c