Thursday, August 30, 2012

What Now?

I find myself in a melancholic mood today and so I found myself wondering. Is this all there is to it? Somehow I realized that things weren't going the way I thought they'd be and now I wonder if my plans for the next few months are still possible. Then I ask myself "what happens if doesn't pan out?". Do I push through with everything even if the odds are stacked against me? Or I regroup and wait for a better time? But what if my idea of a "better time" doesn't come? What now? This is the question running through my mind right this very moment. What now?

I guess I'll just have to let myself wallow in self-pity--if only for this time. I'll feel better later. Maybe, maybe not. But for now, I'll let this be...