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Friends always tell me to let it go, that the one who’s meant to be with me for all time is coming and that I should be patient, or I should feel blessed by being single. But you know what? There are times when I feel so alone. Suffice to say this is one of those times. I want to lock myself up in a house the whole day, eat junk foods, sleep during the day, and be awake the whole listening to love songs while they break my heart all over again.

And this is me exorcising me demons.

How To Make Me Fall In Love With You

How To Make Me Fall In Love With You

What The Hell?

Adele on Swearing

Love Is Louder

Valentine's 2012

I was MIA from the online community yesterday for a reason—it’s Valentine’s and I don’t want to get more wrong ideas about being single and staying one.

I woke up pretty late already since the weather also cooperated. I got up from my bed past 10 already. Hahaha! If you know me well enough, you know I’m definitely not a morning person. So anyways, my Grandma was in the kitchen when I went down so we chatted until we it was time to eat lunch. I showered after eating then went to the living room to watch TV, in the hopes to see either the replay of the Grammy’s or the Azkals game. Just as I settled in, my Grandpa all but but demanded he needed to watch CJ Corona’s impeachment trial, a went to my room a little pissed off.

I browsed which books I haven’t read yet and chose a random one. It was halfway in to the story when I realized I picked a story theme that I found really appealing—a Russian operative with glacier-like blue eyes and a girl with a broken heart. I couldn’t count how many times I stopped reading just to say “awww” or wipe tears from my eyes. The story was just so darn good! I stopped reading to eat dinner and watch a little TV but then I got spooked watching The Secret Circle all alone with the lights off so I went back to reading. I got so engrossed in the story I didn’t notice I was already on the last page.

And that was how exciting my Valentine’s day was, not that I have any regrets. :)

Summer

Madridista

Haters gon' hate baby!

This picture just breaks my heart. There's something vulnerable about the girl that is completely opposite to what's around her--huge waves and strong winds.

Look at the way she clutches the shawl. The way I see it, the shawl seems like a life line and she's holding on to it and holding it close to her heart.

Sissy Love

For what it's worth, I miss my sister. :( She had to go somewhere and every night I wish I can turn back the time so I can safely keep her inside the house. Alas! Some things can't be stopped. Or maybe they can. I just didn't have the strength to stop her. Dammit!

Hala Madrid!

This is how my team celebrates. I love Real Madrid so haters can stay the hell away from blog.

Dreamcatcher

Forehead Kisses

I love forehead kisses. They make me feel treasured and respected.

CR7 Making History at the Bernabeu

This is the 4000th goal in Santiago Bernabeu by a Madrid player, made no other than Cristiano Ronaldo himself. Way to silence your haters CR7! Oooh! And by the way, this was from their game against Levante yesterday morning (Philippine time).

Think like a queen. A queen is not afraid to fail. Failure is another stepping stone to greatness.

-Oprah

Just because I love water and how the movement was precisely caught on film.

“But I think it’s very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone and not be defined by another person.” --Olivia Wilde

Confused

How I would love to have a guy have this kind of reaction when I forget him. It's not surprising to know I'm still single (yes, until now) after all these years. God! I forgot how it has been! 5 years. Five long lonely years and I'm still, well, alone.

At times I've wondered what was wrong with me. Because it has to be me, right? I mean some guys have tried to hook up with me but I always end up seeing something wrong with them before they go too far. And I guess they felt I already put them in the "friend zone" to even bother breaking through the defenses I created. Yeah, maybe that's why I'm alone...

I wrote this more than 3 years ago and I still feel the warring emotions that I felt during the time I wrote this post. And I don't know whether that is a good or bad thing.

When the twilight hits, I remember you.

I remember all those times we spent together. How you used to sing to me when I'm feeling a little low. Or how you always know what to say to make me feel better. And what's worse, I know those things will never happen again. Or maybe they will but another person will do those things to me already.

It won't be you anymore.

This is the new look of my twitter which, by the way, I didn't authorize whatsoever. It just plain sucks! I hate it! I'm trying to find out how I can get the old look back and if that proves to be unsuccessful, then I might just have to leave twitter and look for another site where I am free to rant.

To An Old Friend

So I see you’ve found someone new. No, I’m not sad in a negative way nor do I wish you bad luck. In fact, I’m happy you found another love. I’m ecstatic that you finally, FINALLY, gotten over that girl who made you cry. What did I tell you? The pain will end and somewhere down the road you will find somebody who will love you the way you will love her. It may take a while but she did come, right?



I’m just a little sad because I have to learn about that development in your life through facebook. I mean, don’t I mean anything to you anymore? Can’t you text me or something and tell me all about her? I guess I just miss those times you talked to me about everything.



I just wished we kept the communication lines free. I don’t know what went wrong along the way but I know something changed. I feel it in my heart. I guess what I’m trying to say is I MISS YOU. It might be too late to say this but I love you.