i'm waiting for you...

Who's that person waiting for?

love is...

Since Valentines Day is tomorrow, I find it appropriate to post something very related to the occasion. During the past two weeks I conducted a survey about the different definition's of love by my

classmates and friends. Here's what they have to say about LOVE...

* Love is a feeling you give to yourself, as well as e feeling you give to someone special. ---Viernine Mae Ferrer

* Love is not a feeling, it is a decision.

Love is a never ending process. ---Flor De May Celeste

* Love is a choice. ---Nicah Maan Cuevas

* Love is sacrificing for the people you love even if it means causing you great pain. ---Krizyl Ann dela Cruz

* Love hurts when God knows you deserve someone better. ---Roxanne Teves

* Love is something undefinable, but felt. ---Daryl Mak

* Love is a feeling that's so unexplainable. When it comes to love, expect the unexpectable. ---Lar Ta-as

* Love is a feeling of affection to another person. ---Maymie Romano

* Love is destiny. ---Nizza Wale

* Love is a passion only triggered when emotional understanding is

present in yourself or in others. Emotional understanding because for

me, the heart is always below the mind. ---Nico Vale

* Love is being happy with someone. ---Apryl Recososa

* God is love; greater love has no man than this: that a man would lay down His life for His friends! Talk about love!! Awoo! ---Cole Leo Gegoncillo

* Love is a commitment. It is a willingness to put the best interests of

another person first. It is grace and acceptance. It is truly rejoicing

in the fullness of another person. It is a journey into the heart of

GOD. ---AbigailAbella

* Love is the greatest force on earth. It has different definitions. But if you haven't experienced to love and be loved back, you can't really tell what love is. ---Floriemar

* Love is a language that every heart speaks. It is better to lose your

pride to someone you love, than to lose your love because of your

pride. ---Reynald Aguit.

* I see love when my grandma makes coffee for my grandpa every morning, when my mom wakes up early to cook our breakfast, when my uncle fetches his nephews an nieces from school, when people eat together despite there busy schedules, when my cousin kisses the hurting finger of her baby brother, and when good friends hangout despite the distance. See? Now, who said love was just for couples? ---Gemar Mugatar

* Love is all in the mind. ---Carmela Benosa

i'm so not!

I've always detested people who put a label on me. They put me in a category and seem to confine me in that. They put a stigma on me and no matter haw hard I try to defend myself they won't hear of it.

Just recently, one classmate of mine calls me "emo" everytime we meet, and during those times also I'd always answered that I'm not one. I really want to tell her to stop calling me that because it's already pissing me off. I want to inculcate to her that I AM NOT EMO. I'm too crazy to be an emo. I'm too girly to be an emo. I'm too bubbly to be an emo. Heck! I am so not emo!

over and done with

Midterms is OVER! Do I need to explain that?

Well I guess this means I can pour all my attention to the short story I'm going to write. Not to mention have my imagination running wild. Hahaha! Actually, I find writing a short story difficult. My forte is really in writing poems--heartbreak poems. You might think I'm an "emo" but I am not. I really hate it when people call me that because I really am not. I'm too crazy to be called an "emo".

So much for that "emo" stuff. I'm just glad midterms is over--and done with. Although I must admit, the results scares the hell outta me. Hahaha!

the aftermath...

The time after I take my exams always, if not all the time, leave me blank-minded. This time is no different. I walked out my Math room this morning a little bit disoriented. Yeah, I know you think it's a little exaggerated. But that's the truth. My trig exam was over but I still have to study for my psychology and religion exems tommorow. Boy am I going to be glad after this hell--my own personal hell--is through.


I gotta go! I still have a LOT of things to study. Sigh. This the prize I have to pay if I want to have good grades...


See yah after my midterm exams! :)

the answer

First and foremost, I can't really say that I feel the "I'm-with-my-special-someone" type of happiness whenever we're together--which is not very often. But all I know is that whenever he's not around, I feel like I want to see him even for just a glimpse. On the other hand, we had lots of fun during those times that we are together. We talk about anything under the sun and we laugh at just about everything.Oohh ! And by the way, I feel very "normal" when he's around. Heck! My knees don't even shake when he flashes me his I'm-so-happy-to-see-you smile. Hahaha!

torn

I have a new friend who seems to be catching the attention of my fellow Education students. Well, recently people always see us sharing the same table in the library or walking together or just simply being together. They've hounded me for weeks and weeks now asking if the "guy" and me are dating or committed to each other or anythin of that sort, but WE AREN'T. I can't seem to inculcate to them that we are just friends.
Last night, one classmate from my Filipino12 subject asked me for his cellphone number. Naturally, I told her that I have to ask him first. So later that night I texted the guy if my classmate can have his number--I read his message this morning because it was already very late when i texted him. And he said 'yes,you can give her my number'.
Now I'm torn. I now have the permission to give away his number but i'm having second thoughts about it. Does this mean that I already feel something for him?

ugh!

I know, long before, that I was never good in math or numbers for that matter. But now I'm on the brink of a break-down. Tomorrow I am going to take a test in trigonometry. And God knows how I will fare the exam. But the good thing is (I hope) I never back down from a challenge. So tonight I'ma be burning my midnight candle, if only to insure a decent test score tomorrow. :)

21 things girls don't realize?

- Things you might wanna know about GUYS!

You HAVE to read all of them and if you don't your going to come across with problems in your relationship for the next month!

1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about....

2) Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. :)

4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

5) Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU LOVE THEM!!!

9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.

10)If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

11)If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something.

12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

13)When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me.

14)If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking

something.

16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

17)A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

18)No guy can handle all his problems on his own.

He's just too stubborn to admit it.

19)NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!! Just because ONE is RUDE doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.

20)WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE

21)Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

if i were a boy

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)


[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy...

crazy!

what was i thinking when i changed the colors of this blog? hahaha! well, i think my spontaneity overpowered the logical part of my brain. lol

breaking the limit

Did you know that I actually read Stephenie Meyer's Twilight novel in just 7 hours? I am not bragging,ok? I just feel proud of myself. I know that I can read more than a hundred words per minute but I didn't think I can reach my deadline. Coz you see, I borrowed the book at around 5PM last Monday and I told my classmate that I'm going to return it to her at 8:30 that following day. And I did! (huge smile)

over and done!

Remember the "report" I was talking about a couple of posts ago? Well, it materialized this morning. I was late for a minute or two and I was supposed to be the first reporter. I know what you're probably thinking, "Always the unreliable trexie". But hey I pulled it off! Or i hope so. (--,)

C'mon it's not easy being the fore-runner. You have to pave the way so it'll be smoother for your group mates. Being the first reporter puts you in a make or break situation. You become more or less the sacrificial lamb.

I guess I'll just have to keep my fingers crossed until the end of our report.

cleaning up

For the first time in my life I finally decided to clean up my acts. The first on the list is my language. Uhuh! I'm avoiding profanity nowadays. It's not like I wanna act "holier-than-thou" but I WANT TO CHANGE and become a better person. Not just for me but for the people who love me. And most of all, because i want to pay tribute to my Maker.

I am proud to say that after 19 years pf existence I have finally-- FINALLY! --found Him. I won't be scared to admit that I am a Christian. I may not live like I'm one now, but boy am I determined to really be one in every sense of the word.

I want to talk, act, and live like a true follower of Christ!

jargon

Let me start my post with a question. How do you let go of someone you never had? Does it make it easier knowing you never were committed to the person? Or does it make it harder because the person never knew just how much you cared? Whatever it is, it sure is hard to let go of someone you care about. Ask me. I know just how it feels..